How I got here?

I have no idea.
A lot of people say it's heart.
You got the heart ,Pax.
They all say that.
Friends. Family. People who known me for a long time.

You have the heart.
I guess that's what helps when the chips are down.
You don't give up no matter what happens to obtain your goals.
I'm not going to lie.
I get tired.
I reach my limits.
I go to the point of saying " Fuck it" and move on.
But i can't do that.
So my mind will be forever decorated with old, reopened and new battle scars.
A lot is riding on what i do including futures of those who don't know who the fuck i am.
I know you read it before.

Samurai Champloo AMV: Gang Starr - Battle

Cameron Reid & AIM is like Biggie to Me

I never was a fan of Biggie Smalls. I'm not a big fan of AIM.I don't know who Cameron Reid is. I don't knock anybody that are fans. I respect people's opinions about either.

But I don't like seeing bullshit or wrong doing towards some one rather i dislike them or not.

Now you all know the big story.
For some reason Cameron Reid aka Patient Zeta decide to go to the LA Times and speak out about what happened. Here's the article.





So this dumb ass sound like an CAL Osha spokesperson.
 Hold up.
Before I get into this with my own views here's something from Mike South site.

http://www.mikesouth.com/hiv/cameron-reid-comes-forward-admits-to-being-patient-zero-and-calls-for-mandatory-condom-use-4412/

http://www.mikesouth.com/hiv/cameron-reid-and-aim-both-have-the-same-hole-in-their-story-4416/

So let's get the fact together. Reid say he did the scene with a condom but not for oral sex. He knows that the gay side of porn done get tested for any STDS. He still did the scenes knowing he could catch STDS form the gay scenes. Notice he didn't say he caught it form the straight side. He also claim it's from a shoot but as you seen in Mike South's blog the dude did escorting bareback aka raw aka no condoms.

You know when this claim out i thought this was an CAL Osha tactic. Look like I'm right.
The dude claiming up and down to make condoms mandatory even in straight porn.Once again this dude did gay porn knowing that they don't test and how sexually irresponsible they are. He just mad that now his family know he was doing gay porn. You see how he kept mentioning his "girlfriend".

Bottom line and the motherfucking points are:

1. This dude knew what he was getting into. He lived a secret life and now it's in the light. I have no idea what he tried to proved in his story but it's giving Cal Osha a victory over all porn.He saying testing is not a goo way of protecting your self form STDS is stupid. If the guys he fucked was tested, he would have known about their status. He also help CAL OSHA with their legal move on companies in Florida.
2. Gay porn is fucking our industry up for both side of the industry. These companies carelessness is causing us a big pain in the ass which they're enjoying right now. I feel bad or who ever support gay rights because this shit putting all that work in the Deloren and back to 500 BC. To all those supporting gay rights, you can't claim hate when a large group of your lifestyle is performing acts of bio terrorism on the industry and the American people. I'm not anti gay. i really hope the Gay Adult community and the Gay community get together and change something. i understand gay dude want to see porn. They have that right. Right now, Gay porn is unsafe and those guy who do both straight and gay porn sure stop doing straight porn. Until the gay adult community take action, start testing and claim responsibly, there should be a ban on gay porn and the crossover of gay performer acting in straight sex scenes. i know there are big name male talent who do both and are responsible. They make sure their co worker and their own health is first.I respect them. Y'all seen me on twitter saying that.
3. Aim sorry asses need to crack down on gay companies who don't test their talents. AIM claim once again to be the guardian of the industry and they constantly fucks up.  The gay side is part of the adult industry so why the fuck they're not regulating them? AIM is not doing their job and it's costing all of us. I never trusted them for years and every year they do something to prove my points. It's like fighting a dude who kicks his own ass.
4. Cal Osha is winning. So we as an industry need to act like a business. Take care of your hired talent. Get these tests done. fuck this lazy ass high school mindset that these people aren't your responsibly. they are.We need to stop acting scared and speak out for change. If we don't do it, somebody else will and we will not like it. This discourage new talent and the current talent from working in this industry.

Y'all comment and let me know what y'all think.

Bout Time Cal/OSHA did something right.

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Fame and Stuck up Nobodies

So A friend and I was talking this weekend about how some women in the adult industry don't do shit but want to be all hollywood.
One example is: My friend interview celebrities  and heavy hitters. So he ask this new girl in the industry for an interview she told him  she charge $300 an hour for interviews. Now this girl did one scene and thinks she's this major star. The dude interview a listers for free.
She's not the only one.

It's a growing number of women and men who do little shit on the web that think they're fucking making 12 billion dollars a year or make a lot of life changing plans.

ANother example: YG.
You don't know who he is. Good. I didn't either until i went to LA this year.  This dude made this very Downlow  brothers anthem called Toot it and Boot it. It was a hit in LA. He was performing at The Urban x awards.
Last minute dude got a new manager and made up a new contract after signing one with the event organizers.
This is what he requested.

This dude acting like he's Jay-z.
He's a one hit wonder and his little fame went to his head.
He did a whack performance at the show.

See a lot of people with no talent or with some talent get a big head.

I experienced this a lot here in Atlanta.
I was with a fake company who did nothing but create a buzz about what they're about to do and go to parties.
They act like they're the biggest company in Atlanta but don't have shit of their work.
I left them and now working with people who actually do shit and get recognized for it.
I notice people who are really famous and about their business are humble as hell.
They don't go around stepping on people, putting them down, and adding " Greatest So So ever" title.

It's mostly people who have low self esteem who get a little attention who act like stuck up ass bitches.
It shows through their twitter and facebook.
These people want to brag about being the greatest in their make believe world.
It's sad.
yo.
People should get a big head over little bit of attention.

You can't be the greatest of anything of you only did it one time or have one thing out.

I blame Biggie for this.

Stop making Fake Pornstar Facebook pages to sell your fake ass Lady Jordans.

Sigh. These are the ugliest shit i have seen for women since lace front wigs.
The sad thing is cats are making fake pornstar facebooks to sell these things.
Here's how this scam go:
You save them as a friend on face book then all day they'll tagged you in those ugly ass shoes.
It's annoying when i see my friends get tagged with these taped together shoes.
I don't want see a woman in these shoes.
I see woman wearing these I would think other things are fake.

Porn's stupid ass plan against Piracy.

Really.
All you read about now on adult news sites are The industry vs Illegal Downloaders.
I know I haven't been on full blast like i really want to on this subject.

Just in case you're new to what's going on.
After people been digitalizing adult movies and sharing them online for the last 13 years, the adult industry decides to get off their backward lazy asses and try to stop it.

Their solution: Sue the ones downloading the movies and force them to buy them for now on.
To me that like after the drug users instead of dealers and suppliers.

They know the downloaders will not have to money to get a lawyer to defend them in court. They also know the some of the downloaders will be embrassed to let the world know you watch certain type of porn.
That's like KFC doing tv ads with real life fat people and them "Fattie" and " Gizzle Butts" while they eating their chicken.

I'm not Donald Trump or any multi billionaire but that's bad business.

I know these porn company owners are desperate to stop people from downloading their movies for free but being a decade late to react is like we're go to Iraq for 9/11 now.
It's a brainless tactics.
They brag every time they have a "new" idea how to stop all of this.
The people who are really stealing the movie are ones who has access to them.
I did some research( you know something these idiots don't do.)and I found out something interesting.
The ones who owner torrents site. bloggers, and message board ain't a bunch of ignorant fucks.
These cats are hackers, programmers and smart cats who can develop and counteract anything the industry can come up with.
They can hack into pay per view and have it broadcast online live.

Ok. I see. It's best for the industry to do the coward way and go against the ones who download since they can't go toe to toe....with themselves.

Yes. the providers of illegal porn downloads is the industry itself.
Some major companies make tubesites and blogs with their competitors content to reduce their sales.
I'll use JSI as an example.
I notice JSI movies hit the torrent and blog sites 2 weeks before they street.
Now I know ordinary everyday consumer can't get his hands on a keep of a DVD two weeks before street.
So who's doing it?

Also here's something else to think about.
Only certain companies are fighting this but they say they're fighting for the industry.
The companies are mostly white owned and make multi million dollars.
You think they call about any minority owned and new companies being effected by this.
Yo'll never heard Lexington Steele tweeting he's going to one of their conference against illegal downloading.
They can careless about Busty Baby dolls.com content being posted on blogs..

With this attitude , there's no real unity against these threats.
What's I'm saying is:

Suing the users instead of the dealers and suppliers and think it will solve this problem is an epic fail.
If the industry do research and find an endgame solution to this, it will  a long and hard battle but one that is worth it.
The industry need to rethink it's battle tactics in order to beat this even if it means an internal war.
That's something we need.

Also companies need to stop making porn that suck ass.
All these parodies and put you to sleep quick high budget films are causing consumers to do free download.
If you think about it( and not taking sides with those who do download free porn ) The lawsuits are forcing people to watch wack porn.
In other word, The industry is fucking itself and causing it's own down fall.
These big company dumb fucks is doing what the hypocritical Christians who want to end the industry.

But there is a way to fight this but the industry don't have the guts or the brains to do it.

So we're fucked.

I'm Rick Hulk, Bitch!!!!

Ok. First off. I was online and I stumble upon this.
You know how many coke jokes you can do with this.
Really.
A coked up Hulk.
Charlie Murphy can't fuck with him now.
I wonder if this comic's real?
I'm half sleep. I can't think of some good jokes right now.
But I can get on to the main topic.

I'm really thinking about the road ahead.
I think not only about my self but others as well.
I'm a man that believes that what ever you do in life will effect others you don't even know.
That's one thing that was left out of our upbringing.
I believe that my generation ( if you're born in the 1970's) and the current generation of adults now wasn't thought how to become real adults.
Let's look at our parents' and grandparents' era.
It was a sense of responsibility back then. Neighbors watched out for each other and their kids. Adults had common sense. Honest was in the land.
Now. We do things without care. we don't do things as a team or a community. Everybody want to have an stirred up ant pile mentality. The selfish way people are doing things is the reason why things are going down hill.  The idea of trying to gain a better way of life by destroying other hopes and dreams, preventing people from moving ahead and not working as a team will not work.
Also we're adults now. We have to be there for the young kids out there. Teenagers need help more than ever now.
The bottom line is we need to lose the " Not my problems" mentality.  You'll never know what effect helping some one will do to the world or the future.

Really this is how i think and why i do what i do.
I feel every info I gave out, every project I'm involved, and every person I talk to can help prevent something bad or prevent a person from doing something bad.
I'm not saying everybody I talk to will do something horrible.

I'm saying is that we all our responsibility for each other.
Your action don't reflect on you only but also your parent your community and the industry that you're in.
Look at how bad the HIV scare made the adult industry look. One man's actions fuck it up for all of us and we don't know his name or who he is.

You see what I'm saying.

I hope so.

Mic Check 1 2 1 2 on we're on the air.

About damn time too.

Welcome to The Mind of Pax Negro: Beta Pax Simga.

I decided to do this blog because twitter is so limited.

Really limited.

Hell by the time I edit my tweet i forget what the hell i rant about.

For you all who are new and don't know what I am, let me tell y'all a little bit about myself.

I'm a part time webpage and graphic designer/ member of the Urban X Awards ( I do a lot of job with that organization.) / poet (which I'm getting back to soon on the new site.)/ what ever falls into my lap.

I'm not the type of person to brag or boast about what I'm doing. I hate that. I been around a bunch of dumb fucks who do that. I mean what's the point of bragging about shit you're not doing or being a fake somebody? When you're found out all you can do is look stupid and fall into a deeper hole. 

Any way. Of course I'm in the adult industry so you'll see my rants about that. True is there's a lot of hard work you have to do in the adult industry. Everybody thinks it's fucking, bust a nut and collect money.

Not true.

But we'll get into that in the future.

So I'll just leave you with this until next time which is 5 minutes from now when some one say some dumb shit.